By SaskiaLynge
Youtube user: SaskiaLynge
Age: 32, Mixed (Jewish, Cherokee and Danish)
United States of America, USA, Fayetteville, North Carolina
Film language: English
Film URL at Youtube
Life can change in seconds, hours, or on a single day. My life changed again on July 24th, 2010, which just happened to be the day of the "Life in a Day" film project. I found out about the project early that morning, almost last minute in my mind. I live in NYC, but was in North Carolina visiting my ex boyfriend, who I truly thought wanted to build a real friendship after two years of not speaking to each other. There are just some people you don't want to lose out of your life, and he was one of those people. But you can't hold on to someone who isn't holding on to you. It was heartbreaking to realize that for whatever reason, he couldn't - or wouldn't - act as a real friend, and in that realization I knew that I could no longer let him be in my life. Knowing that I would have to say goodbye to him once again, was heartbreaking, even though I knew it was for the best. And that realization only added fuel to the fire of my deepest fear of being insignificant, irrelevant, and ultimately unloved. Yet despite the sadness of that day, and the days after it, and despite that fear I'll always have to stare down, I do find joy and laughter in the smallest things, especially in the innocence of children, who still believe that the world is a magical place.
Major feelings: Thinking, Talking, Crying, Sadness, Laughter
Saskia Lynge of New York
Submitted: 9/3/2010 22:45:52 Jerusalem time (submission #54)
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